Supper, there was a mystery among the apostles.
When Jesus said: “Truly I tell you, one of you will betray me,” the
apostles were mystified. “Surely you don’t mean me, Lord?” they asked.
has dipped his hand into the bowl with me will betray me,” Jesus told them. How
was it not obvious to the other apostles?
shows up, yet, it was not obvious to the apostles. Despite an unbelieving and treacherous
heart, Judas had managed to fit in.
by Father Thomas Richter, he compared this situation to the Austin, Texas
bomber. Mark Anthony Conditt was another man who managed to fit in despite a
murderous heart. He blew himself up
after 19 days of terror, leaving bombs outside of homes that killed two people
and wounded several others.
Conditt of such horror because he, like Judas, lived a duplicitous life. In Conditt’s taped cell phone confession
made hours before he was confronted by a SWAT team, he described himself as a
psychopath and expressed no remorse for the killings. But when it was revealed that he was the bomber, people
were shocked. How could such a friendly guy, who waved to neighbors and was
raised in a Christian home, commit such evil?
normal family in every way. We love, we pray, and we try to inspire and serve
others. Right now, our prayers are for those families that have lost loved
ones, for those impacted in any way, and for the soul of our Mark.”
Judas, hindsight will be 20/20, but from what we know now, Conditt seemed like
a normal guy. “His behavior wasn’t that
different from anyone around him,” Msgr. Richter pointed out. “Like Judas,
people were at a loss for who it could be.”
Richter, was not the behavior but the heart.
“We need to live in a place prior to behaviors,” he explained. “Jesus
said that it is in the heart that we act.” We can have nice behavior to cover
up the heart, according to him, but we can never cover it up to Jesus. “That is why Jesus came to save us. That
is where he heals and saves us—through the heart. But we need enough faith to bring our hearts
to Jesus. That’s all Judas had to do.”
bombers and yet, our own hearts are in need of constant conversion. They are vulnerable to wounds and resentments
so that even when we manage cordial behavior, it is not always in union with
our hearts.
love. But the greatest of these is love,” 1 Corinthians 13:13.
is so easy, but how do we find such love for those who have hurt us or when we
feel envious or resentful in some way? The
Church tells us how. We are to love others as we love ourselves. We need to desire the good of another and
pray for them, that God’s will shall be done in their lives.
for others about God and satisfying his desires and it gets easier to look past
imperfect feelings. And we can pray for
love, asking God to fill our hearts with it, so that our hearts and our actions
will be a symphony of Christian living rather than the duplicity of Judas.